11.30.2011
I ate the pickle and boy it was a good one :) A.K. and I made amends and fixed everything and boy am I glad. He is now my boyfriend and the love of my life as cheesy as that sounds. I love him so much and he loves me even more which is hard for me to believe. He's the Romeo to my Juliet (we're dating in secret because of my parents but shh don't tell). I hope things work out between us. He wants to get married and what girl doesn't wanna know who she's marrying but it seems way too early to be talking about something like that. Well I'll talk more some other time but I gotta go. <3
Just me, myself, and I. You're welcome to read too of course.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
In a Pickle
10.8.2011
I am in such a dilemma! I don't know what to do. The guy that I was hopelessly devoted to is not all that I thought he was. One of our mutual friends told me things about him like the fact that he likes another girl who goes to college with him. I wasn't supposed to know this but I obviously found out anyway. I asked him about it one day and it was true and it broke my heart because he was the one who asked me not to break his heart and he is the one who turned around and stabbed me in the back breaking mine. He tried to make amends but now I can see the truth behind his lies but I can't help it but still have feelings for him even though I know I shouldn't. And then I think out of desperation I like someone else the tiniest bit. I think I only like him so I won't like A.K. anymore but I honestly have no idea. I just need to make a decision fast and hope it's the right one.
I am in such a dilemma! I don't know what to do. The guy that I was hopelessly devoted to is not all that I thought he was. One of our mutual friends told me things about him like the fact that he likes another girl who goes to college with him. I wasn't supposed to know this but I obviously found out anyway. I asked him about it one day and it was true and it broke my heart because he was the one who asked me not to break his heart and he is the one who turned around and stabbed me in the back breaking mine. He tried to make amends but now I can see the truth behind his lies but I can't help it but still have feelings for him even though I know I shouldn't. And then I think out of desperation I like someone else the tiniest bit. I think I only like him so I won't like A.K. anymore but I honestly have no idea. I just need to make a decision fast and hope it's the right one.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Hopelessly Devoted
10.30.2011
Yes I am a dork and quoted a Grease song but it's true. I'm hopelessly devoted to you A.K. and you are to me as well. We'll make it I hope. Age is just a number. 5 years isn't that much. I want to be with you and I don't care what anyone says. You make me so incredibly happy. Every time I talk to you I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart skips a beat. I'm smiling constantly now because of you and I love it. You say the sweetest things to me. I know I make you feel the same way. I want you and only you babe and nothing can get in our way...I hope.
Yes I am a dork and quoted a Grease song but it's true. I'm hopelessly devoted to you A.K. and you are to me as well. We'll make it I hope. Age is just a number. 5 years isn't that much. I want to be with you and I don't care what anyone says. You make me so incredibly happy. Every time I talk to you I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart skips a beat. I'm smiling constantly now because of you and I love it. You say the sweetest things to me. I know I make you feel the same way. I want you and only you babe and nothing can get in our way...I hope.
Monday, August 22, 2011
What does it mean?
8.22.2011
What does it mean when you can't stop thinking about one person, literally? Because there is this guy, stupid I know can't stop thinking about a guy, but I met him once and I haven't been able to stop thinking about him since then and I don't know what to do about it. It's now or never and I don't know if he's worth it...
What does it mean when you can't stop thinking about one person, literally? Because there is this guy, stupid I know can't stop thinking about a guy, but I met him once and I haven't been able to stop thinking about him since then and I don't know what to do about it. It's now or never and I don't know if he's worth it...
Monday, August 15, 2011
Lying
8.15.2011
I've been lying to myself. Telling myself I'm fine and happy with my life. But the truth is that I can't rely on myself to make me happy. I need other things and people to make me happy. Then, when I look all around me and on Facebook and see that my friends are as happy as can be, I realize it's because they have a significant other there for them. That's what I said before I wasn't going to focus on but I can't help it--it's what I want most. I'm trying so hard not to be jealous of my friends and to not focus on being in a relationship but it's too hard. I don't know what to do anymore.
I've been lying to myself. Telling myself I'm fine and happy with my life. But the truth is that I can't rely on myself to make me happy. I need other things and people to make me happy. Then, when I look all around me and on Facebook and see that my friends are as happy as can be, I realize it's because they have a significant other there for them. That's what I said before I wasn't going to focus on but I can't help it--it's what I want most. I'm trying so hard not to be jealous of my friends and to not focus on being in a relationship but it's too hard. I don't know what to do anymore.
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