Lying

8.15.2011

I've been lying to myself.  Telling myself I'm fine and happy with my life.  But the truth is that I can't rely on myself to make me happy.  I need other things and people to make me happy.  Then, when I look all around me and on Facebook and see that my friends are as happy as can be, I realize it's because they have a significant other there for them.  That's what I said before I wasn't going to focus on but I can't help it--it's what I want most.  I'm trying so hard not to be jealous of my friends and to not focus on being in a relationship but it's too hard.  I don't know what to do anymore.