Back in Time

7.31.2011

I know I said I wasn't going to think about guys or love or anything but yesterday when I went to the mall with my best friend, there was the absolute cutest guy ever there.  And I don't want to sound obsessed because I'm not, but for some reason I felt butterflies every time I saw him.  I don't know if that means anything but to me it felt like it.  I would give anything in the world to see him again to have the chance to talk to him because I was too chicken to yesterday.  If I would have been there for another 15 minutes, I would've talked to him.  I just hope I see him at least one more time so I can find out who this mystery guy is I flirted with.

A Fresh Start

7.29.2011

I'm starting a new chapter of my life and I want to share it with everyone.  I'm trying hard not to focus on finding love again because then I'd be growing up too fast.  Right now I'm at a point in my life where I need to focus on my friends, family, and future.  Now that I'm 15 and a sophomore, I need to focus on my goal in life, becoming a pediatric oncologist.  The only way I can get there is to start over, turn over a new leaf and find out who I really am.  I've been doing a lot of soul searching and thinking lately and it's made me realize that I know who my friends are, what I like, and what I like to do but I  don't know whose friends they are or who likes to do those things.  Right now, I just need to find out who she is so I can move in from my sad, lonely, dark past and become the new me...